i think there's something more life's worth living for

basically, i'm excerpting a bunch from a recent entry from amanda palmer's [the dresden dolls] blog. because she writes things in such amazing ways that i couldn't even describe the effect they've had on me over the past few days. i've only seen them twice live and i pretty much think i love them.

two years ago, when we were touring europe and i was at my wits end, thinking that the band was going to break up, thinking that it was all over and that brian and I had had enough of each other for good, i found a bright spot in listening to avril lavigne's new record and deciding to make a fake video out of the song "together". you've seen the results (if you haven't: www.dresdendolls.com/music/karaoke/index.htm). it was truly cathartic. i don't think anyone really believes me when i say that. having a project like that to throw myself into saved me. the song, with all it's adolescent cheese and overproduction, gave me a wormhole back to 15-year-old self, the lonely confused one eating her lunch in the piano practice room.[italics added]

i'm emotionally purging as we speak. (you can check my last.fm if you want)

a week before the tour ended, we got the call in seattle that ryan's [of panic! at the disco] dad had suddenly died. his only close family. he was an only child and his mom was out of the picture. our hearts sank, we sat in the bus and all looked at each other at a loss for words.

they canceled two shows. we almost didn't want to get the call that the shows were on, because we assumed that that would mean that ryan had been talked into coming back on tour when he should be at home, dealing. dealing with who, with what? ryan came back on tour after three days off, we finished up in california. the whole crew felt strange, their whole gang seemed out of sorts. no wonder. i took a long walk with ryan around the parking lot in anaheim. i felt like the whole world had been thrown at him, in all it's shitty ugliness, and what could i say? better to say nothing. we walked, saying nothing and occasionally something. we started at the hooters billboard, hoisted 5 stories in the air to reach the passing traffic from the highway. we waled to the bud light billboard, hoisted 5 stories in the air to reach the passing traffic from the highway. do you have anyone real to talk to? i will. i'll talk to you. when you're ready. don't lose me. i'm an ally. really. i hugged him and i went back to the bus, getting into my bunk with a heaviness i couldn't describe. [italics added]

i read that entire part over and over again (after i first saw it in the panic lj community). took me two days to blog about it, but here it is.

bought the cheap champagne, we're going down in flames

via myspaceeeeeee bulletin (tai and cobra starship)

Stalkers and Gawkers,

The tables have been turned and now its your turn to be blinded by the flashing lights. For all you little prince and princesses attending the super serpentine show at The Key Club on Wednesday (8/16) in L.A. get ready to get your picture taken. That's right, this aint no average red carpet dilly. Yep, I said it, RED CARPET. Fans will have the chance to walk down the red carpet and be interviewed by Mr. Beckett, Mr. McCoy and Mr. Saporta. So make sure the stalkerazzi gets your best angle - dress accordingly and get ready to be all over page 6.

yea, don't even pretend you're too scene to be excited.

i remember when i lost my mind

add him www.myspace.com/robabergas and download the cover of crazy. btw, he takes requests too.

more panic! photos + dresden dolls + the hush sound, of course.

[panic! at the disco - wiltern - august 2, 2006]
so cute i could punch them both in the face. (lest people think i am a completely superficial psycho, i did like panic! *gasp- i'm admitting it* before i knew what they looked like. so uhh. there.)

ps. thank you bn for giving me yr photo pass. i'll give up my firstborn to you for that.
ps2. i totally forgot to mention that last tuesday at safari sam's i was in the craziest blogger sandwich ever. trent/pink is the new blog. sarah/ultragrrrl. irene/brokencalm. and then we danced and danced and danced and danced. i am the biggest dork ever. most def. one of my favorite moments in life.

my love is a fast song

school starts in less than 13 days which kind of sucks. i should probably quit whining about it though, since i chose to go back. however.. it'll be okay b/c orientation week coincides with COBRA STARSHIP/SoaP WEEK (and rhonda's bday on the 15th). aka i see them a bunch and my final send off is the sounds show @ the wiltern. hollaaa

rob and i went insane about a week ago.
rob (10:29:54 PM): well the external hard drive isn't more likely to die than the one in your computer
rob (10:30:06 PM): as long as you don't play frisbee with the external case
rob (10:30:08 PM): do you?
me (10:30:11 PM): oh crap.. i just played ultimate today
me (10:30:19 PM): asdl;fhlksdhsdlkhf
rob (10:30:20 PM): argh dammit
me (10:30:23 PM): i know. it didn't say NOT TO on the instructions!
rob (10:30:32 PM): its not even circular!
me (10:30:38 PM): OMG NO WAY
me (10:30:40 PM): sh*t. this is news to me
rob (10:30:51 PM): its ok, it happens to the best of us
me (10:30:54 PM): FRISBEES HAVE TO BE CIRCULAR?!!!!
me (10:30:57 PM): goodness. i have been living a lie.. all of these years!
rob (10:31:12 PM): i thought a trace amount of uranium behind a 30 pound lead brick wasn't too radioactive
* please keep in mind that we both graduated from USC. with like, degrees (electrical engineering and business).

i don't know about you, but that snakes on a plane soundtrack is (creepily) infecting every part of my life right now. everything comes full circle, i guess.

i wouldn't front the scene if you paid me

so i didn't even get to fully emo out b/c... my chemical romance cancelled this weekend's street scene perf! boo. well i hope nothing terrible happened to them. but still. boo. no gerard, no mikey, no frankie, no ray, no bob. boo boo boo.

update: apparently bob and gerard were injured pretty badly filming their new vid. hope they get better soon!
these girls had cute shirts/jax. i got some nice pictures of matchbook romance, queens of the stone age, the editors, the shins, and bloc party so that was cool. bloc party is adorable and fun.

all the crazies i was with rode this thing while i photonerded it with my shutter speed thing:

and there was a ferris wheel. um this made my day when i got home today:

ahklsdhgkh somorescene why are you so cool. hahah
"That’s birthday boy Travis McCoy of Gym Class Heroes giving William Beckett of The Academy Is… a kiss on the cheek during the Purevolume.com Warped Tour afterparty at MisShapes. Adorable!"

no shows till cobrastarship.

and don't tell me not to reference my songs within my songs

so awes.[panic! at the disco - wiltern - august 2, 2006]
who wants to guess who my fave member of panic! is?yea, seriously. my teen heart is beating faster, faster.
kelly osborne and billy martin (good charlotte) sightings. i guess more photos later (the hush sound, dresden dolls, p!atd) + i stilll owe the monty are i photos. umm that's it for now. need sleep.

off to san diego this weekend for street scene with hannah and rob. MY CHEM. OMG. OMG. OMG. i haven't seen them play for about year.. so this should be amaz.

this is how we live, this is what we breathe

i posted the outline photos here. i still rly don't like flash, but what can you do.
recap of the dance party: CRAZY. the kids were all sweating. the band was sweating. the light fixtures and room was sweating. i'm pretty sure i lost about 5 lbs of water weight on saturday. it was SO much fun and the crowd had crazy energy. this is basically why i love all-ages shows.. the kids seriously heart the music. ima robot was ridic kinetic. i didn't want to be molested by lead singer but he pulled a girl onstage from the front and danced with her during one of the songs which was cute. anddd yea. lots of scene photog kids. loved it.

the next day:
monty are i was amazing. a) the photo pass wristband also happened to be the same as the all-access wristband (though i didn't abuse that privilege.. not really) + b) we were allowed to stay up there for more than 3 songs, so i just shot a bunch and watched the show from in front of the barricade. so nice. here's a prev.

[monty are i - henry fonda theatre - july 30, 2006]

we loves you.

ima robot + the outline = dance party

that's pretty much all i have to say about that.
photos and deets later.

you can't spell STAR without A & R

andrew mcmahon [jack's mannequin/ something corporate] is so more hipster than he makes himself appear to be [disclaimer: i am using this term ridic loosely. thanks]. should've known when he said he goes to cinespace + spaceland. and then one time, when i confided in him that hipsters are intimidating sometimes.. "you just have to remember they're [just people too]." wise words. except i made up that bracketed portion.. mostly cos i can't remember what he said.

interview posted on livejournal yesterday:
One band we should look out for or listen to.

This band called the Cold War Kids out of California that I was trying to sign, but it looks like I missed the boat on, they’re great. Street to Nowhere from San Francisco- very, very, very cool band. They have a record out now called ‘Charmingly Awkward’ that’s really good, and they just signed to Capitol.

then of course ultragrrrl had blogged about Cold War Kids playing a show in NY on friday.

and of course rock insider posted mp3s of Cold War Kids and Street to Nowhere in this entry a few days ago.

so.. of course i had to check them out. btw hang me up to dry [cold war kids] is avail on rock insider's blog and that one is my favorite.

AND PS. GUESS WHO IS GOING TO THE SOLD OUT PANIC!/ DRESDEN DOLLS/ HUSH SOUND SHOW ON WEDNESDAY AT THE WILTERN. YEP. ME. YAAAAAAAA I'M SCREAMING LIKE A 12YR OLD.

so more scene

I’ll be honest with you–none of the music I write about on here is going to end world hunger, or create peace in the Middle East. Some of the music might not even be very good. But the most important thing about this stuff is that it makes people happy. Some of the music saves kids’ lives and gives people hope. Have you seen anything more joyous than a sea of 1,000 kids simultaneously jumping up and down at a Taking Back Sunday concert at Irving Plaza like it’s the best day of their lives? I know I haven’t. [italics added]

from miss modernage at somorescene.com. no truer words have been spoken.

i'll sacrifice to kill the addiction

hollaaa
apparently today is my day.. monty are i just put up their whole album for stream on purevolume. they are such nice peeps. YAYAYAYAAY

alsaslkjkflkdjsf

let's make this moment a crime

songs to smile to: a mix i made for "a few good friends"

1. the format- the first single
2. something corporate- watch the sky
3. jimmy eat world- the world you love
4. the veronicas- revolution
5. angels & airwaves- the adventure
6. hellogoodbye- here in your arms
7. panic! at the disco- camisado
8. this day & age- seven eighty
9. cartel- wonderwall (cover)
10. jack's mannequin- la la lie (acoustic VH1)
11. the format- give it up
12. bonnie mckee- somebody
13. plain white t's- hey there delilah (live)
14. motion city soundtrack- hold me down
15. quietdrive- let me go in
16. angels & airwaves- the gift
17. the ataris- in this diary
18. the academy is- down and out

my first attempt at making a concept/theme mix. mayb i should make emo mixes for a living?

haven't we heard this song about a thousand times before

oh well.
mildly obsessed would be an understatement. it makes me happy.

it's christmas in california

[jm @ hob cleveland july 7, 2006][jm @ val air ballroom july 8, 2006]

thank goodness for bamboozle left.

steve aoki (dj kid millionaire)

was the answer. everyone loses so i get all the cookies.

continuing on with my obsession with/love for snakes on a plane..
william beckett who is actually a snake on a plane who is actually.. samuel l jackson?!
thnx eric.

the sounds vs. lindsay lohan

what do they have in common?

Tony The Beat

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we all fade sometimes, i believe

[bobby raw anderson - jack's mannequin - warped mainstage. july 6, 2006]

i'm sickly right now, but who can complain. i've had the best week/ month/ year ever. iowa and cleveland were both amazing. strange how things work out in this world..

I WILL FIGHT.. THIS COLD.

warped photos here.

planes made her feel like she could get away

OH. MY. GOD. x 2.

ps. gone to the midwest (iowa and ohio) till next wed. l8r sk8rs.

i'm gonna make it out alive

OH. MY. GOD.
so i've basically waited for this uhh since forev.
hahahaha
www.myspace.com/cobrastarship
listener discretion advised for the first 13 seconds.

just take this song until i see you at the show...

i blog too much when i should be doing other things.

www.myspace.com/damone
sounds like avril. but better. no off. av. besides, avril got all boring after she stopped being "punk" and decided to get engaged. i miss those sk8r boi days. monty are i @ roxy theatre, atlanta, ga.
basically, they. are. ridic. love them. photos will go up on forthesound in a bit.