things have changed for me, and that's okay

man, i need to be more committed to the scene. school is cramping my style. it's like, i don't know what's relevant anymore. have i lost touch with the times? even my mother knows what emo is. *deep breath* how long has this thing been up?

view panic (rip !) at the disco's that green gentleman over on nokiausa.com.

this heart will start a riot in me

paramore's vid for that's what you get premiered today on mtv2. admittedly, not the most exciting video, but it's a cute performance-ish vid. and i can't knock on paramore b/c i love hayley too much. rly. her winged eyeliner? fantastic. and this song is ridic fun live.



okay i don't know who is competing in this thing, but i'm pretty sure jessica alba appearance --> winning ticket.
[Nine in the Afternoon by Panic at the Disco lip dub performed by Team Ibeatyou, Jessica Alba and Romany Malco]


in other news, no idea why i'm still awake. need to be up early tomorrow.

pretty. odd. album preview.

click here.

hmmmmmmm. i like what i'm hearing so far.

your eyes are the size of the moon

do not deny the ridic catchy brilliantness of this song.

the video is randommmm to the max. the marching band long johns are a lil obscene, no? also... brendon is incredibly animated, which is sort of freaky. he needs a haircut stat. still have undeniable love for ryro. ummm spencewentz-- shave that thing. you look like a caveman. jwalk-- no comments for you.

[panic at the disco - nine in the afternoon music vid]

i'm a wreck, i'm a mess, you're a stranger

both the maine and the morning light have recently signed to fearless records.

handclaps and singalong melodies!! how can you not smile.

The Maine does The Morning Light

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ALSO, PANIC JUST POSTED "NINE IN THE AFTERNOON" ON THEIR MYSPACE (as of 9pm it has about 5000000 billion plays). I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THEIR ALBUM. KDONE FANGIRLING BAI.

punctuation! at the disco

finally posted my jack's photos from the orpheum benefit shows.
october 16
october 17

[jack's mannequin - orpheum theatre - october 17, 2007]
went to best buy to pick up some cds.. finally jumping on the silversun pickups bandwagon-- love the fuzzy guitars.

in other tour.show.random hodge-podge news:

- mezzanine owls w/ the teenagers @ the echo 1/22. d/l "snow globes" at spinner.com's free mp3 of the day.

- the audition is touring now. album out 1/22 but preview it on myspace. la show 1/29 knitting factory. totally excited to dance around and lolsq.

- treaty of paris is opening for yellowcard/mxpx. deets on their myspace.

- jimmy eat world and paramore are CO-HEADLINING. paramore has basically exploded. need to catch this tour since i totally missed both when they came around to la due to conflicts with my evening class. BUT NOT THIS SEMESTER.

- jack's and the spill canvas tour together this yr.

- p!atd is no longer. THEY DROPPED THE ! so we're back to patd. so does this mean we panic, but without emphasis or excitement? they talk about grammar or something here.

i'm an addict for dramatics, i confuse the two for love

adam lazzara (tbs) proposed to chauntelle dupree (eisley) on vday. cuteness to the max. more here.

andddd i'm going to go cry now. there goes my shot with adam. (okay srsly people, that was joke.) all kidding aside. ADAM. YOU ARE AN ATTRACTIVE MAN. AND I RLY LIKE YR BAND.

one more tidbit: patd in sports illustrated musicians&models issue here. wtf. bden, plz wax those eyebrows. i just don't understand them. and whose bright idea was it to put ryro next to the model? is it b/c he's tallish? he just looks INCREDIBLY awk standing there. OH AND I MIGHT AS WELL CONFESS MY LOVE FOR RYRO NOW TOO. RYRO. YOU'RE AN ADORABLE MAN/BOY. AND I RLY LIKE YR BAND.

out.

and we have crashed her party

clearly, i have issues with focusing on school work.
hi adam and steve aoki and unnamed girl.
idk who's teen bday party it was (clearly it was nicole richie's also.. or something) or some teen vogue misshapes something something. but this cobrasnake album was a veritable goldmine of celebs (and not-so-celebs aka mischa barton's sister). point out all the ones you see in my comments plz.

p33t and ryro.

ryro and idk, idc.aaaand i'm done.

testosterone boys and harlequin girls

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!

[panic at the disco - lying is the most fun... (nye with carson daly)]
**note the high pitched girly shrieking haha

EDIT:
[panic at the disco - i write sins not tragedies (nye with carson daly)]

**why is bden's voice so low???
the cello is so rad. seriously, i think it adds a lot to their sound. good on the hiring a cello dude for the headlining tours.

and fyi HELL YEA TROJANS.

give me envy, give me malice, give me attention

totes forgot to mention i won that meet-and-greet thing @ the sd panic! show. that was interesting. girls freaking out aotp, but i guess that's cute when you're underage. not so cute when you're my age (fortunately, i wasn't flipping out... i was too busy loling at all the "rules" we had to abide by.. including no touching, no leaning over the table, no inane conversation topics, no asking them to throw up gangsta signs.. you'd think we were meeting the pope. should've just thrown them in a bulletproof glass box). i rly can't say much other than the fact that it was interesting and someone should look up "professional responsibility" the next time they roll outta bed to do a meet-and-greet. nevertheless, i think all the winners had a good time and it was kinda cute watching them flip out the way my generation did for bsb and nsync.. even though it made me feel like like a geriatric.

despite the lecture, i still adore them. LIKE YOU COULDN'T TELL.

i finished the rest of the panic photos and posted them here.

[panic! at the disco - ipayone center - december 9, 2006]

the object of my (pedo)affection.

HOW ABOUT NOW, BDEN.aaaand just for lolz.i win at life. two posts in one day? holla.

holidaze: when it's all over, i'll come back for another year

hello my BBs,
first things first: i'd like to mention that i saw elijah wood today, at santa monica place (aka the mall connected to the promenade). he walked past me in the food court, while i was sitting with mi madre. that was awes. i explained to my mom "it's the short guy in the lord of the rings movie, the one with the blue eyes." he was looking pretty cute! and i don't even have a thing for hobbits.

i'm going to work on my backlogged photos this week, so hopefully that'll work out and i'll have some posted (i.e. panicccc photos at the disco!). i also get to look for a summer internship. w00t.

also, we deco'd cookies at e and shelby's on saturday and ryro and the long-lost rosevest made an appearance. we had a photoshoot.

and in case you were living in a cave, jack's mannequin has pressie for yall: www.jacksmannequin.com. links to d/l the trax are in the comments here.

stay safe, xox.

nothing rhymes with i'm pretty sure i'm in love with ryan ross

so i caught the last show of the nothing rhymes with circus tour @ the ipayone center (i guess formerly called the sd sports arena or something). took some photos. panic! danced a little. cameos by e, rhonda, ashley, aromee, and alee. and christine was right, dude, if you stand in the middle of the arena, the sound is kind of odd. i could swear i heard a slight echo in my right ear. weird.

kay pix. and commentary. when i get the full sets posted, i'll announce. for now, i just posted the jack's photos here in my gallery. thx for your patience.

[cobra starship - ipayone center - december 9, 2006]
GABE. love him. [jack's mannequin - ipayone center - december 9, 2006]
fyi: andrew and jay are having a facial hair growing contest.fyi: i just made that up.BOB. i'd post more but that was all the facial hair i could handle in one post.

[panic! at the disco - ipayone center - december 9, 2006]
everyone, plz meet my bf ryan ross. we're getting married, he just doesn't know.
you may recognize him as the guitarist for panic! at the disco. he also plays the drumz in the drumline.

just some dude named brendon who sings. dance, dance.yes, we get it. you're grabbing your crotch. awk shot.FYI: all the ryrolove commentary that i write.. is just for lolz. so no hateration, no "he's my bb, not urs!!" ummm yea. right. besides, i know better than to try to date a musician. but that kid is the epitome of adorable. i could fangirl for all eternity but i'll stop now.

alllrighty. goodnight.

smile when you feel the sunlight

1. my sister is 20 today. happy birthday! i can't believe she's getting old, too.

2. THIS IS SO COOL. rhonda and ashley informed me last night that katie kay, a member of the circus troupe lucent dossier (they toured with panic! at the disco and the dresden dolls) posted this photo in this blog entry back in august. i feel spesh! [if anyone cares, the rest of the photos from that show are here]

3. OMG ROFLCOPTER. please stab me, i must be emo. this is the most hilarious article i've read in awhile.. ridic.

4. probably shouldn't be updating for awhile, but who knows, maybe i'll dig up some old photos and post.

nothing rhymes with circus

lol, i blog from the library now.

hrmm so that's what panic! at the disco ended up naming their tour..

some other names that were being thrown around [courtesy of my jm friends, who deserve pretty much all of the credit]:
- more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better **** tour
- intermission tour [shortest name ever]
- can't take the kid from the fight, take the fight from the kid tour
- keep telling yourself that i'm a diva tour
- wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it tour
- with a sense of poise and rationality tour

you're down with the japanese

PRETTY MUCH THE GREATEST VIDEO EVER MADE.
dresden dolls v. panic! at the disco - backstabber.



myspace bulletin "explaining" the video if you didn't know already..
While on tour together this summer, The Dresden Dolls teamed up with headliners Panic! At The Disco to film a video for The Dolls newest single, "Backstabber."

Midway through the tour, DD's Amanda Palmer had a revelation, "Why not make a video with these guys? They're here, they're bored like we are, they're hilarious." She shared in her online blog. "We aren't making a 'real' video for our next single,' She proclaimed. "'What's more real than this?' We keep asking. Nothing."

"It's not something that's going to be an official release to go to MTV, it's just that we were on tour with them and they came up with this idea to kind of do a funny thing." Panic! At The Disco's drummer, Spencer Smith, recently told online publication, Undercover. "It was just something that we were having fun doing at the time while being on tour and just something I guess for the fans of either of our bands to kinda see. It's just a fun bonus thing."
"People are just arrogant and ignorant." Panic! frontman Brendon Urie told dose.ca midway into the tour regarding inspiration for the video. "We're actually going to make a movie with the Dresden Dolls about that one thing [the fans fighting] to kind of poke fun at our fans for not being nice to each other."

Call it what you will -- the tour is over, the smoke has cleared, the video is done, and it's time for you to see...
The Dresden Dolls vs. Panic! At the Disco! Click HERE to see it!

Cheers,
Bill H.

*Be patient if it doesn't play right away as it was just uploaded and is getting a lot of hits so it may take a coupla tries to work

i think there's something more life's worth living for

basically, i'm excerpting a bunch from a recent entry from amanda palmer's [the dresden dolls] blog. because she writes things in such amazing ways that i couldn't even describe the effect they've had on me over the past few days. i've only seen them twice live and i pretty much think i love them.

two years ago, when we were touring europe and i was at my wits end, thinking that the band was going to break up, thinking that it was all over and that brian and I had had enough of each other for good, i found a bright spot in listening to avril lavigne's new record and deciding to make a fake video out of the song "together". you've seen the results (if you haven't: www.dresdendolls.com/music/karaoke/index.htm). it was truly cathartic. i don't think anyone really believes me when i say that. having a project like that to throw myself into saved me. the song, with all it's adolescent cheese and overproduction, gave me a wormhole back to 15-year-old self, the lonely confused one eating her lunch in the piano practice room.[italics added]

i'm emotionally purging as we speak. (you can check my last.fm if you want)

a week before the tour ended, we got the call in seattle that ryan's [of panic! at the disco] dad had suddenly died. his only close family. he was an only child and his mom was out of the picture. our hearts sank, we sat in the bus and all looked at each other at a loss for words.

they canceled two shows. we almost didn't want to get the call that the shows were on, because we assumed that that would mean that ryan had been talked into coming back on tour when he should be at home, dealing. dealing with who, with what? ryan came back on tour after three days off, we finished up in california. the whole crew felt strange, their whole gang seemed out of sorts. no wonder. i took a long walk with ryan around the parking lot in anaheim. i felt like the whole world had been thrown at him, in all it's shitty ugliness, and what could i say? better to say nothing. we walked, saying nothing and occasionally something. we started at the hooters billboard, hoisted 5 stories in the air to reach the passing traffic from the highway. we waled to the bud light billboard, hoisted 5 stories in the air to reach the passing traffic from the highway. do you have anyone real to talk to? i will. i'll talk to you. when you're ready. don't lose me. i'm an ally. really. i hugged him and i went back to the bus, getting into my bunk with a heaviness i couldn't describe. [italics added]

i read that entire part over and over again (after i first saw it in the panic lj community). took me two days to blog about it, but here it is.

i remember when i lost my mind

add him www.myspace.com/robabergas and download the cover of crazy. btw, he takes requests too.

more panic! photos + dresden dolls + the hush sound, of course.

[panic! at the disco - wiltern - august 2, 2006]
so cute i could punch them both in the face. (lest people think i am a completely superficial psycho, i did like panic! *gasp- i'm admitting it* before i knew what they looked like. so uhh. there.)

ps. thank you bn for giving me yr photo pass. i'll give up my firstborn to you for that.
ps2. i totally forgot to mention that last tuesday at safari sam's i was in the craziest blogger sandwich ever. trent/pink is the new blog. sarah/ultragrrrl. irene/brokencalm. and then we danced and danced and danced and danced. i am the biggest dork ever. most def. one of my favorite moments in life.

and don't tell me not to reference my songs within my songs

so awes.[panic! at the disco - wiltern - august 2, 2006]
who wants to guess who my fave member of panic! is?yea, seriously. my teen heart is beating faster, faster.
kelly osborne and billy martin (good charlotte) sightings. i guess more photos later (the hush sound, dresden dolls, p!atd) + i stilll owe the monty are i photos. umm that's it for now. need sleep.

off to san diego this weekend for street scene with hannah and rob. MY CHEM. OMG. OMG. OMG. i haven't seen them play for about year.. so this should be amaz.